Valentines Day 2012

People asking me what I did for v-day. Let me clarify.... I hate Valentines Day. With a vengence. Let me set things straight, I am not one to hate something because everyone is hating that thing. For example, I do not like Twilight not because everyone hates Twilight - I do not like Twilight because I don't get vampires and werewolves and I think they are boring, same reason I don't like Underworld.

Or I don't like Justin Bieber not because everyone hates him. I don't like Bieber cause I don't like his music. Same reason why I don't like Katy Perry or Rihanna - because I don't like their music.

See what I am trying to say? No?

Another example, I do not like Mahathir. I don't think many people hate Mahathir but I don't like him because he came up with NEP and all that shit and basically screwed Malaysia around.

Get it? I don't like stuff on a basis. I also like stuff on a basis. I won't hate or like something because everybody else is hating or liking it. If I don't not like it or like it, I'm indifferent.

So anywayyyyyy...... I hate Valentines Day. For a reason.

Yes, I have a boyfriend.

Yes, I HATE the v-day.

I don't get what's so great about it. Prices of food goes up, cost of flowers goes up and so on and so on. Seriously, some one explain to me why it is so awesome please.

I don't care what you do with your love life. As long as you don't.stick.it.in.my.face. 

I stayed away from social networking sites on that day. It was way too irritating for me. Really. Don't get me wrong. I am all for people showing each other their love for one another. My question is, why only on this day?

How about the other days? I can imagine how the other days would feel... pretty neglected. Imagine...

Conversation between 14Feb and 12July

12July: Hey 14Feb.. wassup?

14Feb: Nothing much 12July. Just the usual ya know. Everybody's talking bout how much they love each other today.

12July: Really? How come you're so lucky? In the past hour, 5 couples have broken up today alone for me! 

14Feb: That's weird. These male species of human beings are buying loads of flowers and gifts for their girlfriends. 

12July: That's unfair! No one bought anything for one another during my turn!!!!! I mean, one of that male species you're talking about even sent his girl to the kitchen to make him a sandwich cause she was whining bout her nails.

14Feb: The horror!!! Never happened in my day! 

12July: What is wrong with me? How come no one does it during my day? Why only yours? :(

14Feb: The world is unfair. Deal with it. Humans only show they love each other during my time!

12July: I feel neglected. *cries.

You can imagine or not?! I can ok! What's so special bout February 14?

I guess it is pretty entertaining to see people acting all lovey dovey during the day then 2 days later, fight like mad. lol

Personally, I feel it will be more special if my boyfriend randomly bought me a pair of shoes and gave it to me. Why?

Reason 1: It is random so it will be a surprise and unexpected.
Reason 2: I will love it more because I got a new pair of shoes and other people didn't get anything on that day.
Reason 3: Feel extra love cause it isn't a special day or anything and he bought it cause he knows I will like it. Which leads to
Reason 4: He would have been thinking of me to have bought me that said pair of shoes.
Reason 5: I love shoes.

I honestly think that people nowadays are only going for special, over priced dinners or lunches or giving huge gifts to their special person on Valentines Day, for the sake of getting bragging rights, to put it in a nice way. In a not so nice way, to get attention.

I don't begrudge you for celebrating but reallyyyyy........... *gags

Oh and another reason why I don't like the day. It's a day single people think they are entitled to whine about being single. Any other day single people say they hate being single, they'll get bombarded with things like, "It's alright, you will find somebody soon." or "Why you so desperate?"

Heh you get what I mean.

Call me jealous or whatever cause my boyfriend didn't go out of the way for me with all the fancy do. Well fyi, he did come to Ipoh even after specific instructions not to come cause I had work. Sigh, when will he ever listen to me? Oh and we ate the same food we ate and drank beer before I fell asleep at 11.00pm because of being over exhausted. Just like any other day.

So there.

Life As It Is

It's not that I did not want to update my blog, I just haven't had the time. So a short one before I find some place in my life for a long windy one that you won't even wanna read. 

After working 3 part time jobs (Berlin's Bier Houz, Le Greene Gym, Ipoh Echo), I finally quit the one at Berlin's Bier Houz only to get a full time job at DAP.

I'm a political secretary to YB Wong Kah Woh from DAP. You can get his Twitter here. He's the State Assembly Man (ADUN) of Canning. The full force of this job has finally hit me today and I felt like fainting lol. It's pretty flexible in the sense of "as long as you get the job done".

I have not quit Ipoh Echo or Le Greene Gym yet. I like it there. It keeps me busy. You pull together the hours put in from all three jobs and I've got my days full, which is just what I need. Seriously.

It is pretty lonesome here in Ipoh. My friends are mostly not around. I think Ipoh people should stick together more before huge cities like KL grabs them. Oh well, life goes on right. I understand that not everybody is like me, who chose to stay in Ipoh.

Yes, I chose to stay in Ipoh. Ipoh is my home and this is where I belong now. In time, doors may open and I might leave but for now, this is where I will stay.

I miss Joel. He's been gone only 3 weeks but I miss him. No one to cause havoc and no one for me to disturb at night. It's like I'm the only child at home right now and that makes me even more lonesome.

The brightest light in my life right now is Jarrod. Even then, the light is kinda dim. I'm busy with work and he isn't in Ipoh nintey-five percent of the time so the time spent together is limited which in turn has put a strain on the relationship. I've blown off my boyfriend a few times these few weeks because of tiredness and I feel mad guilty about it. I think I have a too understanding boyfriend.

Other than that, it's the work that's filling my life, day and night right now anyway. I think I should learn to relax a bit. I love the work cause it's keeping me occupied, other than that I'm just lonely. hoho.

Okay that's it. I'll have more soon. 

Work

Work is getting kinda mundane at Berlin's. I've been waitressing there to get some extra cash just fyi.

I find myself day dreaming during the day when there are no customers. There is one particular day dream which seems to have been happening quite often now.

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It is where I mere waitress (which I am) and a guy, kinda looks like a Johnny Depp, comes into the bar and orders a drink everyday after office hours. I don't know it yet but he's rich and famous. It is my day dream, I can add whatever bonus I want!

Then one day while he is watching me, cause he does that every day obviously, he tells me that the only reason he comes to have a pint everyday is so he could see me. We start talking and fall in love etc etc.

He never tells me he's rich or famous and I don't know it cause I'm in my own little bubble but one day I find out and I'm so pissed at him [god knows why. billionaire my gawd!] so I don't wanna talk to him and ask him to leave everytime he comes over.

Since he has nothing else to live for in Malaysia, he goes off back to where ever he comes from and gets back together with his girlfriend who is also super rich and famous. Plus, she is super hot but has no brains unlike me. She also has zero personality and is a bitch buahhahahaha!

They are spotted in the tabliods and I am livid. At the same time I realize that all I ever wanted in life was him so I leave waitressing for the first time and fly all the way to where ever he came from.

Catching him and his new girlfriend/ex-girlfriend in a make out session, I profess my love for him and he dumps her right in front of me. She's mad of course and bitch mode turns on. Then we get into a bitch fight which I win, obviously. So she goes slinking away like a snake while I flash the victory sign and jump into my super sexy guy's arms.

We come back to Malaysia cause we wanna run away from all the paparazzi. Malaysia paparazzi? What paparazzi?? lol. I never go back to waitressing and he continues doing whatever he does to make all that ka-ching.

Super sexy man and I live happily ever after and books are written about us. Movies are made about us and I get Shu Qi to play me. We get richer cause we sell our story to Hollywood.

I mean like duh, a super smart waitress lands a super billionaire. Don't look down on waitresses. wth

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So this is a pretty pointless post. Seriously, I need something to think about and work my brain before I go mad or something.

When You Know...

1. Can make me laugh. Lets me snuggle. Keeps me safe. Stands up for me. Lets me boss him around.
2. The lack of justice in Malaysia.
3. Mary Beth Chapman - Choosing to See
4. - Work.
    - Lunch.
    - Work
    - Watched One Tree Hill S09E01
    - Blog
5. I'm sorry. I wish you would come back to Malaysia and talk to me. I wish we could be friends again. I miss you.
6. Overplayed on the radio.
7. - Calling other people ugly/fat.
    - Treating girls as sex objects.
    - Harping on something I cannot change.
    - Assuming I'm this person who can only do this this this and nothing else.
    - Generalizing people into one category.
8. Rice, egg with meat, vege, rambutans.
9. Very important but it isn't everything.
10. - The Weepies - World Spins Madly On
      - Kate Voegele - Sweet Silver Lining
      - The Script - Man Who Can't Be Moved
      - Naturi Naughton - Out Here On My Own
      - Kate Voegele - Wish You Were
      - Steven Curtis Chapman - More to This Life
      - Asher Book - Someone to Watch Over Me
      - TLC - No Scrubs
      - One Republic - Come Home
      - Lincoln Hawk - Everytime
11. LOVE LOVE LOVE.
12. If it's celebrities: Wentworth Miller, Harry Shum Jr., Hugh Jackman, Edison Chen, Chase Crawford.
13. Could get fitter but I'm pretty okay with it.
14. The restaurant's uniform and pajamas.
15. Virgo. Don't know what it is supposed to say bout my personality cause I'm not into horoscopes bull.
16. You never left Malaysia.
17. My room is clean LOL.
18. Losing my phone all the time.
19. Semi pro camera,
20. Not succeeding, getting robbed, raped and murdered.
21. Extremely successful and happy.
22. Just done with my undergraduate :D
23. My friends in university. My boyfriend.
24. nil
25. How to be more independent.
26. Like: independent. Dislike: can be too bossy.
27. Find your own Calcutta - Mother Theresa
28. Bali, Hong Kong, USA.
29. Combing my hair, other than that I think I'm pretty normal.
30. Chinese New Year.

Officially Graduated

I have officially graduated! I have never felt so sad. Okay so I've been waiting for this moment for four years and now that it has come, it's so anti-climatic. I have to figure out what I wanna do with my life, I have to find a job in the mean time etc etc etc. It is kinda taking a toll on me.

My passion is writing and politics. I don't think I am prepared for either.

So currently, while waiting for results (which is now out), I have been working 3 part time jobs. At the La Green gym as a receptionist, waitress at Berlin's Bier Houz and as a stringer for Ipoh Echo to earn some *kachingggg*. Seriously though, what do I want to do with my life??

I'm at a crossroad but don't know which path to take. I know that in time, God will show me which way to take but in the mean time, I've gotta keep moving forward. Staying in the same place all the time won't do me any good.

Okay so I was thinking of quitting my waitressing job at Berlin's. Mostly because I wanna make more time for Ipoh Echo but also because standing for eight hours straight isn't doing me much good. Then again, sitting for eight hours straight won't do me any good either. The best job has been at the gym cause I do nothing there except collect member's monthly dues occasionally and I get to work out (not that I do) anytime I want, for free. hahaha!

I'll be so super fabulous in no time. Not that I'm not yet fabulous. Just you know, extra fabulous! :D

I was also thinking of continuing on to do my MBA in June/July in Australia but then I thought, why not just put it off for a year and go see the world? Like some explorer or adventurer or something.

Then I think again and I come to the conclusion that no, I don't think I am made to go sight seeing and climbing walls and living in the jungle. Brother is leaving to Johannesburg for six months and I am a teensy bit jealous. He doesn't have to make any major decisions for six months.

My blog is dying a slow death :(

Basically I have nothing to write about cause all I do is work or stay at home and watch movies and tumblr. Boyfriend time is non existent because he's 3 hours away from me.

I really gotta sit down and set some short term goals as well as long term ones. Sigh.

Inspiration

Today I went for a job interview but not interview. If you get what I mean. I'm not even sure what it was but I met up with him and he said something that rang so true, I just stun there for awhile. hahahah

He said, "Well it doesn't matter if you're wrong. It just means you're one step closer to being right."

Wahhh I almost teared after hearing that. HAHAHA. To have this kind of confidence. I need more confidence. Really. I've got loads to learn. I need to learn how to get an idea across more than anything.

2012 - The Year to Shine

It has been an awesome 2011 for me. I honestly cannot remember being as depressed as I was in 2010. Now it's 2012 and I'm going at it with so much gusto, I feel aching in my body already. The good kind of ache, mind you. haha.

Highlights of 2011:

1. Saying goodbye to my friends of UTAR for the final time.
2. Internship at UNHCR Malaysia.
3. The year I met Jarrod and fell so hard for him.
4. Captain ball with CF people.
5. Judah baby was born.
6. Driving to Klang and KL with Rachael, having no idea where we were heading.
7. Shifting from Kampar --> Ipoh --> KL --> Ipoh --> Kampar --> Ipoh [that's a lot of packing!].
8. Going to Thailand with Yukino.
9. Vietname with mom and aunt.
10. MTV World Stage.
11. Bersih 2.0 walk.
12. Jayesslee concert.
13. Singapore with Jarrod, Gabriel, Alvin, Synrol, Christine.
14. Celebrating Jarrod's birthday in KL with me alone.
15. The Malaysia - Arsenal game where Malaysia lost :(
16. Road trip to Melaka with UNCHR interns.
17. Road trip to Camerons with Jarrod, Dijie and Rachael
18. Turning 21 with my loves.
19. Finished writing my thesis.
20. Gua Tempurung with coursemates.

So these are just the basics. Obviously the real highlights of my year was going for Bersih 2.0 and having Jarrod as my boyfriend.

Looking back on what I wrote a year ago, I am so glad that what I wrote still rings true. Glad to know I hate none of them at the end of 2011. hahahaha. Yes, special appreciation goes to my dear Ipoh Garden East [IGE] gang, who have stuck with me, god knows why, throughout these years.

What Wai Keong said the other made me ROFL. At a barbeque, he said, "I thought this was an all guys party?" Then he pointed to me and said, "Except you la. You not counted."

Which means imma bro now? hahahah!

Well, maybe the IGE guys will go on and act macho and all by not saying they love each other but I'm a girl who has no problem saying it... I love you guys! :)

How did I usher in the new year?

We went to Padang Ipoh cause we thought there were fireworks. Got conned cause we heard fireworks going off all around us but none at Padang Ipoh. So we went for dinner/supper at tai-sai-keok. That's 3 years in a row where I've ended the old year and started the new year with the same people. Hopefully it goes to up to 4 years, if not 5.

The new year, 2012 is filled with uncertainty for me. I don't have a job, I don't have a plan, I don't have the income. Yet I know that it will all end up okay because I have a dream.

May this year be filled with adventure, growth and more frienship and love :)

A Reason for the Season

I love December! One of the reasons is the quite obvious Christmas. Another reason is because all my friends come back to Ipoh. At least, those who can.

Christmas has come and gone and I am back to bumming around. lol. Had like so many parties and celebrations with friends and family and church. Loved it!

So among the Christmas celebrations were....... 

1. A Night of Christmas Carols @ PGS hall.

 

 2. Christmas Party @ Generation-One, Kampar.

Gen-One family.

3. Christmas Party @ Infuse, Ipoh.

4. After party @ Overtime with my beloveds.

5. Christmas lunch @ Florex with family.

6. Christmas dinner party @ Loreen's crib.

7.  After party @ Evelyn's place.

Childhood loves.

Was a tiny bit disappointed that I wasn't able to celebrate Christmas with Jarrod though cause he's from Klang and was over there with his family. In my entire life, this is my first Christmas with a boyfriend! That means an extra gift.

So that was how I spent the few days before Christmas.

Amidst all the parties and get togethers, it is so easy to forget why we celebrate Christmas in the first place really. As the title suggests, there is a reason for the season. The reason being Jesus's birthday celebration. Would do me and a lot of other people a whole lot of good to remember that!

So, I should also update more... but don't judge me on that :) tata.

JR Gathering

I'm done with exams and I guess I'm done with my university life. A few loose ends to tie up then say bye bye for good. Lagging in blog posts though :D

This year's Journalism Gathering was held in Grand Kampar Hotel. It ain't that grand but the name sure sounds like it. The JR Gathering is like a traditional gathering to send off the graduating journalism course students (us) that was started by the seniors before us. Also an excuse to pig out.

My super cool lecturer. Love him much!

Oh I got a prize because I went and spoke about my internship. We do that every gathering where we share experiences with juniors kind of thing.

Whole class!

Whole course!

Trapped in a lift. So how? Camwhore!

Dengan junior ku.

Yup, we lie on the floor everywhere.

Yes, I will miss you guys!

Tata for now!

Almost graduation

It has been quite awhile since I've written anything of substantial value. My brain kinda feels deadish, if you get what I mean. Most of the posts previously are all pictures pictures pictures describing what I've did for the last few months.

I guess I'll wait till after I graduate (failing finals is not in my vocabulary) and kao tim and settle everything first. Like my pending finals, results, transcripts, graduate studies application, Christmas, New Years, finding a job and everything. Meh and I thought that after finals I won't have anything to do. 

So I've finished my undergraduate thesis, also known as my Final Year Project. Presentation and everything went pretty well I guess. I hope so. So that's one less hurdle for me to get my Bachelors degree. I feel so swamped this semester but still some how managed to have quite a bit of fun.

Another thing bringing us even closer to graduation was our class photoshoot. Besides the official one, our theme was "MODERN DAY SARONG".

God knows who came up with that theme!

Ever notice the black robe people make you put on for convocation looks so much like Harry Potter? -__-

Journalism class of 2011.

Road Trip: Camerons

Titile says it all. Road trip to Camerons. Me, Jarrod, Rachael and Dijie.

Toby Mac, Kelly Clarkson and Michael Learns to Rock on the stereo. Don't judge me. I don't have many CDs.

Reaching the top and having no idea what to do, we ate lunch then had a straberries and waffles dessert then walked around the market. Hung out in Starbucks for a bit and down the hill we go again.

No regrets. None at all. Totally needed the small getaway from this depressing place. Oh it's only depressing cause I've got a lot a lot a lot of work to do and I'm right now procrastinating. Kbye.

Spelunking!

For our Broadcast Journalism assignment, we were required to do a video recording of Kampar's tourist attractions. Now, as a student, I'm not very big on being touristsy as I've been staying in Kampar for the past almost 4 years already.

Anyway, since Gua Tempurung is actually really really near Kampar town (bout 10 minute drive), my group mates (Rachael, Myra, Sara and Chin Eng) and I decided to make a trip there for an "adventure" as none of us has been there before. 

Drove there and decided to go for one of their wet tours. The third one, Top of The World. 

I actually don't get why it's called Top of The World when we're going into a friggin cave underground. -.-

All nice and clean :D

The tour guide was really awesome to us considering we were being so laggy. I mean we had to take recordings of the cave and Sara was the VJ for our video and all that. We lagged lagged and lagged behind during the tour it was pretty scary being left alone in the dark at times but not scary enough! hahaha! 

Cause we laughed a lot. muahhahahah! 

Caving!

Steep steep steep stairs.

For me, the really challenging part was going down the stairs. Not going up but going down. Le sigh.

It is dark okay! I had a torch but I don't wanna fall down the super steep flights of stairs! 

Imagine falling down 600++ steps. =/ Utter horror!!!!!

I always feel as if my feet are too big for the stairs. I'm a size 6 now you know, you can buy me shoes! but I always always feel as if my feet are really big for the steps and then I'll over step and fall down. I won't really fall in reality but it sure feels that way! 

So we came to a spot where you had to slide down on rocks to get to the bottom in pure darkness. Super excited for it because of the adrenaline rush! :D

If you are super super chicken though, just go home. You can also take Tour 1 and Tour 2 like all the other losers. HAHAHAHAHA

Miss the landing and die. muahahhaha

Before possible death, please pose for a picture (Y)

Okay none of us died. A few bruises and aching muscles maybe. Right after that, we had to squeeze through a damn small hole called Lubang Tikus. If you are super super fat, do not even think about it.

Fortunately, all of us are okay sized :D

Why they wanna torture us like that though is beyond me. All in the name of ADVENTURE. 

All for the sake of our assignment too. Poor Sara had to look pretty while doing all these stuff. hahahaha!

Chin Eng macam tikus in the Lubang Tikus.

Then then then we had to crawl through the cave in water therefore getting ourselves wet. Oh yeah, we opted for the wet tour in the beginning! Forgot bout that. 

The only reason we didn't go for Tour 4 and get ourselves fully wet was because of the cameras. Two cameras were in our hands. Wasted!

First thought that entered my head when the water just swished all over us was, "MY SHOES!!!" *cry.

My sports shoes with rubber soles. Kesian okay!

Basah semua! meh.

Crawling through the mud was pretty eew. We duck walked and walked like a crab to get through the place because we couldn't really crawl with both hands. I didn't wanna get my butt wet and Chin Eng was holding the cameras.

If you stand up, you'll hit your head on the stalactites above and trust me, you do not wanna do that. You may be hard headed but the stalactites are way harder.

FML at my non existent fitness for my legs are aching now. Oh well, I have an awesome butt. hahaha!

These butts ain't mine though. HAHAHA

After much crawling and duck walking, we reached the almost end. I was to say the least, relieved. Mostly cause I was tired and the sand in my shoes were being a bother.

Caving episode almost done!

And DONE! :D

Washed ourselves in the river.

As soon as I typed that, I feel super super kampung! 

Washing myself in the river. HAHAHAHAHA. Never been there before! Dirty water but oh well. hahah! 

Kampung kampung!!

Got ourselves as clean as possible then headed back to Kampar. Now it's editing and editing and editing left to do. Not exactly looking forward to that.

Oh and the car stinks like mad. So I bought an air freshener. The purchase of the day!

I'm such a sucker for consumerism.

With our very very patient tour guide.

So spelunking for the first time? Nailed it like a baus! Done and done!